Grumble

It's been a long time for me to post something. Today negative though just push on. I've a big things that hold me so hard these few days. I am stressed out, it's not because I don't like my current place. I love so much, I love every staff that so humble and Open-minded, Their smart-though, Friendly and Energic. as I said, They such a great personality. The last intern was same. He is  a good person Pak Noval said He is define 'Bagus' as a young man.
That should be motivate me to produce good things. Yes! It should be like that.
But as far as my 16 days (count by the day I wrote this) I haven't make any progress. I am too introvert, I am afraid people hate me. I can't blend with this new situation.
I can't be as good as HIM, the last intern. I've try so hard to be extrovert, Trying to speak more, well at least I feel awkward to find a real words. When we discussed on cassual time. Just such a fun hang out where the Smile, laugh and a lot story. I will be the one who sitting on the corner without saying a words just following other people's expression, I really want to cry. The feeling like this just burry me to the deepest. Everyday just the same. I woke up every morning and said 'I will be extrovert and speaking more, I believe I could blend with these super staff'. And guess the whole day still the same as the last day. And I ended up on the bed with the tears, pulling out my self because i am just a stupid girl.